Do it now! Do it now! Do what – I’m on vacation! You don’t work on vacation, only socialize and sightsee. Ok, Ok, I’ll do it now, and my 10k steps a day. Phew! It is a sacrifice to be working on my Master Key Experience practices and almost embarrassing to be taking time away from visiting. And what are they thinking? (Story of my life) But not taking care of my needs, my promises, is something I always do to please everyone else’s plans in life. I then think that my way is stupid and weird and so then go along with the crowd feeling sick in my gut for not following my bliss.
As you can see I am confronting honoring and loving myself for what I love in life which it seems has always been against the crowd’s way of living. Working on my Definite Major Purpose (DMP) again and realize after a conversation with my dear friend who is also in the program that as usual I forgot to include what MY needs are. I’ve listed true health like my love for learning piano, partner dancing, decorating my home, gardening and that they all should benefit my skills to service others. Why can’t these activities just benefit my soul, just ME. Is it no wonder why I am still reworking my DMP because I can’t get that my Personal Pivotal Needs (PPNs) are for me?!
The quote below from Greatest Salesman has been haunting me since reading it three times a day every day for the past two weeks. Being in denial that I don’t put myself first I can no longer ignore what it is costing me.
“I will greet this day with love in my heart. And most of all I will love myself. For when I do I will zealously inspect all things which enter my body, my mind, my soul, and my heart. Never will I overindulge the requests of my flesh, rather I will cherish my body with cleanliness and moderation. Never will I allow my mind to be attracted to evil and despair, rather I will uplift it with the knowledge and wisdom of the ages.”